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“Married?”

 

The topic jumped a little too far; Jiu Shu couldn’t help but repeat it softly to make sure he’d heard correctly.

 

“Yes! Is …… that okay?”

 

Gu Yin’s voice carried a steady tone that was maintained with effort.

 

He was striving to become the qualified husband in his imagination.

 

Jiu Shu looked intently at Gu Yin in front of him, from his eyes that couldn’t hide his excitement, to the blush at his cheeks.

 

And those cold, subconsciously trembling fingers.

 

Although he had gotten confident to the point of proposing to his beloved priest, he was still nervous.

 

At one point, Gu Yin felt extremely inferior, so extreme that even if Jiu Shu himself said he forgave him, he wouldn’t want to believe it, and would only continue to be self-loathing, with strong self-destructive tendencies.

 

Now, perhaps he had been influenced by his other self after all; his sanity had also become shaky.

 

In an unstable state of mind, after accomplishing his long-cherished wish, and believing that he had no more shortcomings, this inferiority complex was instantly replaced by a long-suppressed desire.

 

From extreme low self-esteem to extreme confidence, it appeared that he had become more honest about his feelings.

 

In reality, it was more like an aerial tower, supported only by a pathological fantasy that spread from him getting a good looking skin.

 

In this fantasy, he would no longer be rejected by the crowd or disliked by the priest due to his ugly appearance, but would have the qualification to live with the priest forever.

 

He’d obtain the love that he had longed for, but couldn’t obtain.

 

But this fantasy was too fragile, and if he wasn’t careful, it would shatter, crushing the already fragile spirit and revealing the soul that had already collapsed behind the fantasy.

 

Or to put it more simply, Gu Yin had now gone crazy like his other self, and the only reason that supported his rationality and prevented him from completely collapsing was this fantasy.

 

Looking at Gu Yin’s handsome face and eyes, the corners of Jiu Shu’s lips curled up, and his other hand caressed his pale cheek as he sighed.

 

“Okay, let’s get married.”

 

If you want to get married, then let’s get married.

 

Perhaps it was faster to merge by directly pointing out everything, revealing the scars, and expressing his desire for him to merge with the other self, but Jiu Shu never wanted to see the object of discipline fall into a state of collapse.

 

He would feel sorry.

 

It wasn’t impossible to slowly untie the knot after satisfying Gu Yin’s fantasy.

 

Jiu Shu’s palm was gently caressing him.

 

Gu Yin stared blankly at the person in front of him, as if in a dream.

 

Although it was the proposal he made and the scene he had fantasized about countless times, after truly receiving the priest’s consent, he couldn’t help feeling so excited that even his soul trembled.

 

“Father…”

 

Gu Yin stared blankly at the priest, lost in his tenderness.

 

“Just call me Jiu Shu.”

 

Jiu Shu corrected him softly, his tone soft as feathers brushing over his ears, causing a shiver.

 

Pa Da Da——

 

Tears fell onto the white bedsheet, leaving a dark imprint.

 

Tears kept falling from Gu Yin’s red eyes, and when he realized he was shedding tears, he panicked and wiped them away.

 

He didn’t want his sweetheart to see him in such an immature and unstable state.

 

That wasn’t the behavior that a husband should have.

 

Even though he was already in such a panic, the other hand holding the palm of Jiu Shu’s hand was still cautiously placed; he was both afraid to exert force and unwilling to let go.

 

Even when wiping his tears, he dared not move too much, afraid that Jiu Shu would retract the palm placed on his cheek.

 

After changing his skin, Gu Yin’s face was more stern than before, revealing the coldness of an adult man.

 

If he looked at someone expressionlessly, he would always appear overly indifferent, and even reveal a terrifying aura of death.

 

Even with a smile, he would inevitable show a few points of indifference unique to inhuman things.

 

At this moment, his tearful expression was in stark contrast to it, diluting the inhuman feeling, and making him appearing somewhat submissive.

 

He was so afraid that Jiu Shu would dislike him for shedding tears that he didn’t even dare to raise his eyes to look at Jiu Shu when he wiped his tears.

 

“Alright, don’t cry anymore.”

 

A soft and slightly cool touch suddenly came to his forehead, not the touch of a finger, but a more warm and moist feeling.

 

It was Jiu Shu comforting Gu Yin with a light kiss.

 

After realizing that it was a kiss, Gu Yin’s earlobes reddened to the point of nearly dripping bloo-d, and the blush that filled his face almost spread to his pale neck.

 

Although they were going to be husband and wife, this level of intimacy was still more than Gu Yin expected, and he felt so tingly that he couldn’t control his body.

 

After kissing him, Jiu Shu moved closer and carefully lowered his eyes as he wiped the tear tracks on Gu Yin’s face, the action was very light, but it was like a ball of flame that burned Gu Yin’s brain to dizziness.

 

Even the tears stopped without him realizing it.

 

Because of Jiu Shu’s movement as he got closer, Gu Yin’s eyes subconsciously fell on Jiu Shu.

 

Because he was sitting on the bed, when he approached, Jiu Shu’s body leaned forward, and his already loose collar loosely revealed clear lines of his collarbone, as well as his waist, which appeared to be thin and narrow under the light fabric.

 

When he bent over, the top of his shirt lifted up, revealing the tight muscular curves of his waist, the curves connecting all the way to his narrow hip bones.

 

Jiu Shu didn’t have a very athletic build, but he wasn’t skinny either; he had a lean body that looked thin in and out of clothes.

 

When there was only a layer of fabric, a thin layer of muscle could be clearly seen, and when it was exposed, one could almost imagine the soft and slightly cool touch when touching his waist.

 

“What’s wrong? You’re blushing so hard.”

 

Gu Yin heard Jiu Shu’s soft laugh.

 

As if reading his mind, his fine white fingers cupped his face; they were nose to nose.

 

Breathing in the same air as his lover, Gu Yin could smell the intoxicating and cool aroma of Jiu Shu’s body; it was so intimate.

 

When their eyes met, Gu Yin blushed.

 

No matter how many times he looked at it, Gu Yin would always be mesmerized by Jiu Shu’s beautiful eyes; he was unable to speak for a long while, and only after a moment did he shyly avoid his gaze, his gaze falling on Jiu Shu’s bright red lips.

 

His forehead was still hot from the kiss from earlier.

 

It made him wonder why the priest wanted to keep such an intimate distance – did he want a kiss?

 

Since they were already going to be husband and wife, it should be Jiu Shu hinting at it.

 

It would be too much not to fulfill his wife’s request.

 

Gu Yin thought so dizzily.

 

“I’m still a bit sleepy, would you like to accompany me for a little more-” rest.

 

It was also the right time to appease the object of discipline.

 

Before the words were finished, Jiu Shu’s thoughts were interrupted by a slightly reckless kiss.

 

The corpse-like cold thin lips froze Jiu Shu’s lips, but he only paused for a moment, he didn’t reject the kiss.

 

Perhaps it was Jiu Shu’s submissive nature that made the other more passionate. Excited, his breathing became increasingly rapid, and his broad hands instinctively gripped his waist along with the kiss.

 

The narrow and thin waist could be easily embraced by one hand, and the flexible feel was even better than it looked.

 

Afterwards, the area where the waist connected to the hip bones had a shallow waistline, and when his fingers were placed on it, they almost sunk in, making it difficult to control the texture of that area.

 

Jiu Shu’s shuddered, his breathing a little unsteady.

 

This body’s waist was a bit sensitive, it couldn’t stand being teased like that.

 

After his reaction, the owner of the big hand seemed to be a little embarrassed; he wanted to move his hand away, but hesitated again and again; he couldn’t give up the intimacy of being skin to skin with his sweetheart.

 

Sometimes he wanted to let go, and sometimes he wanted to stick closer. The feeling of going back and forth was torture, so it was better to stick to him tightly all the time.

 

In response, Jiu Shu could only helplessly wrap his arms around the neck of the person in front of him, deepening the kiss and allowing himself to ignore the other sensations.

 

Originally, Gu Yin’s clumsy kiss only stayed on the lips, and it was only under Jiu Shu’s guidance that he carefully probed between his lips and teeth, and then it went out of control.

 

Lips and tongues entwined, he suddenly hated the slightest distance. The feeling of contact was so wonderful that it made Gu Yin’s hollow heart feel completely filled.

 

As if he had a hunger for skin, Gu Yin tightened his arms and completely wrapped Jiu Shu in his embrace.

 

Nestled in bed, he wished every inch of their skins were tightly pressed together.

 

So satisfied, so happy.

 

If only time could stay in this moment, he would be this happy forever.

 

The kiss lasted for a long time, and Gu Yin was so intoxicated that he forgot himself. It wasn’t until Jiu Shu resisted and patted Gu Yin on the shoulder that Gu Yin quickly retreated.

 

Jiu Shu’s face had turned red due to lack of oxygen, and the corner of his eyes were as red as rouge, as he breathed in the hard-earned oxygen, there were still water stains on the corners of his lips.

 

Lying on the bed, Jiu Shu feebly used his arm to shield his disoriented eyes, trying to rest for a moment.

 

His shirt was disheveled and wrinkled, revealing a chest that was rising and falling fast due to his heavy breathing.

 

His beauty was overwhelming at this moment.

 

Gu Yin was stunned for a moment before coming to his senses; he quickly apologized, “I’m sorry.”

 

It was a bit regretful; a mature husband wouldn’t make his wife almost unable to breathe.

 

But if it were to happen again, perhaps he would still be so reckless.

 

Because his lover was so beautiful.

 

Beautiful to the point of glowing.

 

Lying on the bed, Jiu Shu weakly covered his dazed eyes with his arms, wanting to rest for a moment.

 

But Gu Yin carefully moved his arm away and peeked at his face, like a large dog who knew he had made a mistake; it was both funny and pitiful.

 

It seemed that not looking at him would make him feel very uneasy.

 

Jiu Shu couldn’t help but laugh, then he touched his drooping head, softly soothing him, “It’s okay, I’m not angry. Actually, I’m also very comfortable, just don’t wait that long next time.”

 

After all, he was still human and needed to breathe.

 

Gu Yin nodded eagerly, indicating that he would definitely learn to be gentle next time.

 

“Can you sleep with me for a while?”

 

Jiu Shu was as soft as water, and no one could refuse his request when he was like this, especially Gu Yin.

 

He carefully laid beside Jiu Shu, not daring to hold him tightly anymore, but Jiu Shu naturally snuggled into his arms, intimately inseparable.

 

Gu Yin was flattered and tentatively hugged Jiu Shu back. After not being rejected, he hugged Jiu Shu tightly with satisfaction on his face.

 

If possible, he really wanted to sew himself and his lover together with a needle and thread, so that they could be so intimate forever.

 

But that would be very painful.

 

Gu Yin had always known the taste of pain, so he would never let his lover suffer such pain, so he could only fantasize about it.

 

Just imagining made his emotions incredibly sweet.

 

At this moment of happiness that left his mind blank, his lover suddenly spoke up, “Although I’ve agreed to your proposal, I have a question to ask you

 

“Why do you want to marry me? Do you feel guilty about what happened before?”

 

Upon hearing these words, Gu Yin was stunned for a moment before recalling the incident where he had previously competed with the ghost for his body. At that time, he kept apologizing to Jiu Shu for the harm caused to the priest by the ghost.

 

He did feel guilty and remorseful because of this, and deeply hated himself.

 

After all, it was his self deception that caused the bitter outcome, and the mistake he made was so serious that he wasn’t even qualified to be forgiven by Jiu Shu and at that time he thought so …… until later he realized that the one who was more deserving of death wasn’t him, but the firecey ghost.

 

Fortunately, everything was fine now.

 

That ghost would no longer come to bother them, he became good looking and he also got his lover’s forgiveness.

 

Where Jiu Shu couldn’t see, Gu Yin’s fingers twitched nervously, still filled with residual resentment.

 

It seemed that only resentment towards his other self could make him feel that he wasn’t full of sins, that he could be forgiven, that he could stand before the priest.

 

“If you’re apologizing because of what happened before when you treated me badly and told me not to like you, I’ve already forgiven you, you don’t have to feel guilty.”

 

“Didn’t I say that? I’ll forgive you no matter what.”

 

As if he didn’t notice the change in Gu Yin mood, Jiu Shu continued to talk about his concerns.

 

In the face of such a sentimental lover, Gu Yin seemed to be quite touched and wanted to say something, but timidly stopped.

 

Because the priest didn’t even know about the love compulsion, it simply wasn’t included in all the things that could be forgiven.

 

It was also impossible to reveal.

 

“Actually, it’s okay to feel guilty. I’m really happy that you proposed to me.”

 

“Because I really love you.”

 

The lover in his arms lifted his head, revealing flushed eyes filled with passionate love.

 

Hot enough to almost burn Gu Yin’s soul.

 

Listening to his lover’s confession, Gu Yin had already forgotten what he wanted to say.

 

He even forgot how to make a calm expression.

 

In the end, he could only suddenly tighten his embrace and lean his long haired head against Jiu Shu’s neck, his breath trembling.

 

Jiu Shu’s confession surprised Gu Yin and he wished he could crush his lover into his bones.

 

Moreover, from what was just said, Gu Yin felt the unease of his lover.

 

Worry arose from love, fear arose from love.

 

Only by truly loving someone deeply could such worries and fears arise.

 

In this relationship, Gu Yin had always been the one who worried the most about gains and losses, whether it was the self deception when initially denying his feelings, or the regret after realizing his feelings later.

 

He thought the priest would never be as uneasy as he was when facing his beloved.

 

But now, after feeling that Jiu Shu also cared about him, Gu Yin felt so happy that his heart was about to explode. In order not to appear too out of control, he could only rely on his lover’s neck to hide his expression.

 

But the feeling of the neck gradually getting wet still made Jiu Shu laugh uncontrollably.

 

After becoming more honest, he really became much more lovable.

 

He knew that Gu Yin was disguising himself well, but he was on the brink of collapse.

 

The best solution was to make him feel a lot of love until he believed that even without the love compulsion, he’d still love him.

 

“What’s your answer, do you really not love me?”

 

Jiu Shu sounded very melancholic.

 

Gu Yin didn’t want to see Jiu Shu’s sad expression so he quickly responded, “Of course I love you, very much.”

 

“Really? You’re not lying to me?”

 

His melancholic expression became more pronounced.

 

The way to make the object of discipline no longer worry about gains and losses was to be even more uneasy than he was.

 

Gu Yin was a bit at a loss. As a first-time lover, he didn’t know how to comfort his restless lover and could only repeat it over and over again. He really loved Jiu Shu.

 

There was no one in this world who loved Jiu Shu more than him.

 

If it wasn’t for the sake of disguising himself as a normal human being, Gu Yin really wanted to just dig out his heart and show it to his lover; once he saw the violently beating heart, he would surely believe in his love.

 

Jiu Shu’s furrowed brow made Gu Yin so anxious that he wanted to shed tears again.

 

He thought to himself: why not just dig out my heart? That way my lover would be happy.

 

It was a bit unusual, but it was all for the sake of making his lover happy.

 

Luckily, Jiu Shu quickly realized that something was wrong, and Gu Yin’s idea didn’t have time to be carried out before Jiu Shu took hold of the wide palm of that hand.

 

“Don’t hurt yourself, I’ll be heartbroken.”

 

Jiu Shu’s expression was somewhat serious, but Gu Yin could only feel a pang of excitement.

 

Jiu Shu felt sorry for him.

 

This cognition made him smile sweetly, as if he hadn’t heard anything.

 

At this Jiu Shu had a bit of a headache, but there was nothing he could do about it.

 

“I believe that you love me, if you no longer love me someday, you must tell me clearly.”

 

Jiu Shu said, stroking the side of Gu Yin’s cold face; he remembered the words of the system when it tried stirring up trouble; it said that His love wouldn’t be eternal.

 

It was true that there were few things in this world that were eternal.

 

He was a little lost in thought for a moment before continuing as if nothing had happened, “Don’t make me stop liking you all of a sudden like last time.”

 

Gu Yin wanted to make it clear that it wasn’t his doing, he wanted to say that it was all the fault of that damned ghost, and that that sort of thing would never happen again.

 

But in the end, he kept the truth under wraps and solemnly looked Jiu Shu in the eye and swore.

 

“It’ll never be like that again, and I simply can’t live without loving you!”

 

Gu Yin continued seriously, “I will always love you, and it will never change.”

 

“If one day Jiu Shu thinks I’ve changed, just eat me; I’ll cut up every piece of my flesh and every bone so that it’ll be easy for Jiu Shu to swallow. When being eaten by Jiu Shu, if Jiu Shu can find it delicious, it would be the happiest thing for me.”

 

Having every piece of his flesh and bloo-d chewed and swallowed by his lover was indeed an incomparably happy thing for Gu Yin.

 

Because then, they would be one and would never be separated.

 

His uneasy lover would no longer have to look sad because of him.

 

Jiu Shu looked at the sickly deep love on Gu Yin’s face, and his beautiful eyes widened slightly for a moment before he revealed a smile, “I believe in you.”

 

“But I won’t eat you, I want you to stay by my side forever.”

 

Jiu Shu didn’t think the conversation could go on much longer.

 

Although the current object of discipline seemed to be in a stable state, his thinking and logic were still very different from normal people, he was afraid that something really bloo-dy was going to happen if the conversation continued.

 

So he decided to sleep a little longer.

 

Looking at his lover who closed his eyes and went back to sleep, Gu Yin also quieted down, and he meekly accompanied Jiu Shu on the bed, staring at him endlessly.

 

His inflated desire was soothed, and his mind calmed down like never before, and he even felt some sleepiness after a long time, wanting to fall asleep with his lover.

 

But the overflowing happiness still made him not want to sleep, so he just recalled his lover’s confession over and over again, revealing a satisfied smile from time to time.

 

Jiu Shu loved him so much, and he also loved Jiu Shu.

 

So why not do the wedding tomorrow, no, it was a bit too rushed, a qualified husband should give his wife a perfect wedding.

 

Then could they do it the day after tomorrow?

 

Gu Yin thought bitterly, pondering what to do to prepare for the wedding.

 

Thinking about it, he couldn’t help but kiss his lover’s soft cheek, then shyly hugged his lover tightly.

 

His sleeping lover was just too cute.

 

He carefully kissed him several times, and each time he was shy for a long time, and then he couldn’t help but continue after the shyness wore off.

 

Jiu Shu moved his arm; the sleeping man seemed a little too disturbed, which made Gu Yin stop moving and settle down; he wrapped his arms around his lover and closed his eyes as well.

 

This was the behavior of a normal person who should fall asleep with his lover.

 

He didn’t know how long it took, but Gu Yin suddenly opened his eyes; he seemed to have heard something. He didn’t disturb Jiu Shu beside him, and carefully sat up and looked in the direction of the door.

 

There was a rustling sound coming from there.

 

For a moment, in the dim room, Gu Yin’s bl-oodless face looked gloomy and horrible.

 

*

By the time Jiu Shu woke up, it was already midday.

 

Jiu Shu, who woke up with back pain, sat up and looked at the slightly gloomy sky outside.

 

Usually, the believers should have come to the church for mass long ago.

 

But Jiu Shu also knew that lately they didn’t need to attend mass.

 

After all, the object of discipline didn’t believe in god, and naturally, neither did the puppets he was temporarily manipulating.

 

It was a bit strange, though, that the object of discipline wasn’t in the bedroom waiting for him to wake up.

 

Jiu Shu walked out of the room thoughtfully, hearing the heavy sound of a bone-chopping knife slicing through meat coming from the kitchen.

 

Walking near the kitchen, the tall man with the apron was raising the bloo-d-soaked knife in his hand to cut the minced meat on the counter.

 

Hearing Jiu Shu’s footsteps, a wide smile suddenly grew on the man’s expressionless face.

 

He wiped away the bloo-d that was splattered on his face, revealing his strong, lean waist strung out by the apron, as if he was trying to show off his robust body to his lover.

 

“You’re finally awake dear, I made stew, will you have that for lunch?”

 

With that, he took a few steps forward and scooped Jiu Shu into his arms, breathing in the scent of his lover’s body with fascination, as well as shielding him from the broken meat that was still seeping bloo-d from the trash can behind him.

 


TN:

I’ve been so busyyyy, sorry about the no updates. My mama wanted to decorate for Christmas, so she’s been dragging me everywhere.

I’m free now, so updates will carry on, see ya soon.

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