When Shen Jue felt a pain on his lips, he was thrown to the ground.
He twisted his eyebrows to look at the person in front of him, and the tip of Murong Xiu’s long hair gently swept over his face, leaving an itch . . . Shen Jue struggled laboriously, but was also still firmly pressed underneath the other person.
“Murong Xiu!” As Shen Jue struggled to call out Murong Xiu’s name, he turned away his face, the half of his face that had been kissed had already turned hot, “Is that what you want?”
Murong Xiu lowered his head and rubbed the tip of his nose affectionately against Shen Jue’s earlobe, whispering, “What?”
Shen Jue let out a soft breath and adjusted his breathing before saying, “After doing it, are you willingly die?”
Murong Xiu almost laughed with anger, there was such a ridiculous thing in this world.
“What do you take yourself for? Am I going to die if I sleep with you?” He gritted his teeth.
Shen Jue turned his face, his eyes were unusually calm, “If you don’t want to, then I don’t want to either, if you have to do it, then it’s force. Violence, although I can’t kill you, there are plenty of ways to kill yourself, you can try .”
Murong Xiu choked, his eyes locked onto Shen Jue’s face. Murong Xiu was truly bad in this life, but he hadn’t forgotten the panic he’d felt when he’d almost been raped by Ni Xinyan in his last life, the nausea that he still had trouble letting go of.
Murong Xiu felt moved, he didn’t want Shen Jue to be like him.
So he slowly sat up, his beautiful face without any expression on it.
Shen Jue didn’t move, just looked at Murong Xiu steadily, he was waiting for an answer.
If Murong Xiu refused, he couldn’t forcefully kill Murong Xiu, then he would have to kill himself and enter the next cycle.
A long silence passed before Murong Xiu spoke, “Okay, I promise you that you can kill me, but I have a condition that you can kill me when I get tired of f*cking you.”
Shen Jue directly frowned at the words, “No, how do I know when you’re tired of it?”
Murong Xiu laughed and looked at Shen Jue sarcastically, “What? Do you think your looks will make me swoon?”
Shen Jue sat up on his elbows, he ignored Murong Xiu’s sarcasm and said, “You have to give me a specific time, or I won’t agree.”
Murong Xiu looked at Shen Jue, his heart was growing cold, Shen Jue used his body as a bargaining chip to make a deal with him, a deal for his life. Shen Jue didn’t seem to care about that at all, he only cared about being able to kill him, maybe the person he loved didn’t have a heart at all.
He had thought that by living another life, the heavens had given him the chance to do something that he hadn’t done in his last life. But maybe the heavens just made him see clearly that the person he loved not only didn’t love him, but only wanted his life.
“Shen Jue, can I ask, why must you kill me?” Murong Xiu said softly.
Shen Jue hesitated at the words, “I can’t tell you, but I have reasons why I must kill you.”
Murong Shuo felt more and more amused that Shen Jue wouldn’t even give a reason to kill him. He stood up and dropped his eyes to look at Shen Jue who was sitting on the ground, “After this battle, whether I succeed or fail, I will willingly die at your hands, okay?”
“Okay.” Shen Jue replied.
Murong Xiu slightly curled his lips, revealing a pale smile, “Then you also have to promise me two conditions, one, during the war, you have to learn to love me, even if it’s just an act, and two, after I die, you can’t be with Ni Xinyan.”
Shen Jue barely hesitated, “Yes.”
Murong Xiu nodded, he quickly blinked his eyes and restrained the tears in them, “Very well, then.” He turned around and left the broken temple first. The wound on his back was still bleeding and had stained the clothes on his back red.
Shen Jue followed him.
As Murong Xiu let the wound on his back bleed and slowly walked forward, Shen Jue thought about it, but he still went forward and said, “Let’s take care of the wound first.”
Murong Xiu didn’t look at Shen Jue and continued to walk forward. Shen Jue wrinkled and reached out his hand to pull Murong Xiu, “Your wound needs to be treated.”
“No need, this small wound is not a problem, don’t worry, I’ll die at your hands even if I die.” Murong Xiu stopped and turned to look at Shen Jue, no emotion in his eyes, “What’s more, I haven’t tasted you yet, how can I die? You want me to have a life, I have to sleep more, right?”
At the end, he laughed.
Shen Jue loosened his hand when he saw Murong Xiu’s current appearance, and no longer discouraged him.
When he returned to the residence, Murong Xiu didn’t talk to Shen Jue and went to the study on his own, the people under Murong Xiu’s hand saw him injured, they were busy asking the doctor to trreat him, and there were several who surrounded him to hush him up. Shen Jue looked at Murong Xiu who was surrounded by everyone, stood in the same place for a while, and then went back to his room.
The two people who were guarding him had woken up, and when they saw him come back, one of them snorted and scolded, “Thanks to the master being so good to you, you still followed someone else ……” he didn’t finish his sentence, and the other one pulled him,” Well, don’t say anything, the Gongzi[ son of an official] has returned.”
He turned to Shen Jue and said, “Gongzi must be tired from his trip out, so I’ll go boil some water.”
Shen Jue nodded his head and went into the room.
The night passed like this.
From the second day, there was no one to watch over Shen Jue, and it was as if Murong Xiu no longer cared about Shen Jue’s stay or departure, and Shen Jue never saw Murong Xiu for the next few days.
Until late one night, Murong Xiu, who reeked of alcohol, appeared in his room.
At that time, Shen Jue had just finished bathing and was sitting on the couch in front of the window, drying his hair.
Murong Xiu was wearing a red shirt with a high waist and slim fit that made his whole body look like an orchid tree. Carrying a jug of wine, he paced slowly to Shen Jue’s side, his fair fingers picking up Shen Jue’s cheeks, “Just finished bathing?”
Shen Jue looked at Murong Xiu, “Mm.”
“Good.” Murong Xiu hooked his lower lip, “Saved my time.”
He tilted his head and took a large gulp of wine, drinking a little too quickly, the wine inevitably flowed down his neck into his clothes, he looked wanton and . . debauched, but still had a trace of his original appearance.
He wiped the corners of his mouth with the back of his hand, laughed at himself, and pressed over Shen Jue.
He didn’t say anything as he undressed Shen Jue, just pursed his lips tightly while Shen Jue didn’t say anything either, he let Murong Xiu move on top of him.
Murong Xiu forcibly opened the clamshell and touched the tender flesh inside. The corners of his eyes were faintly red, and as time passed, his eyes became redder and redder, and he actually burst into tears in the end. Tears dripped down his cheeks and landed on Shen Jue’s eyelashes.
Shen Jue had his eyes closed, but only opened them when he was hit by a drop of tears. He was visibly stunned when he saw Murong Xiu, who had tears streaming down his face, and only after a while did he raise his hand and touch the tears on Murong Xiu’s face, “Why are you …… crying?”
Murong Xiu frowned and pulled a hand over the thin blanket beside him to wipe his face, indifferently saying, “I’m not crying.”
Eventually, Shen Jue lowered his eyebrows, not quite understanding why the other party would tell such an obvious lie.
After that night, Murong Xiu would come to Shen Jue late every night, even if Shen Jue was asleep, Murong Xiu would wake Shen Jue up in his sleep. Sometimes when Shen Jue got angry, he would hit Murong Xiu, but Murong Xiu was like a new person, and when Shen Jue hit him, he didn’t hide, he just focused on Shen Jue’s skin and bit it, quite like savoring a last meal.
If Shen Jue really resisted badly, he would lightly drop a sentence, “You have to make me a satiated ghost.”
Shen Jue pursed his lips in displeasure, which made Murong Xiu smile.
He lowered his head and kissed Shen Jue on the lips, “Bear with me, you won’t have to bear with me for long.”
Although he was smiling, his eyes were serious.
Sometimes, when Murong Xiu came to look for Shen Jue, he didn’t do that either, he just held Shen Jue all night without closing his eyes. He looked at the person in his arms without blinking his eyes, and looked at the other person’s eyebrows and red lips with affection, as if he was carving the last appearance of the other person in his heart.
Three months rushed by.
Murong Xiu started coming late at night, and Shen Jue heard from the people in the house that the war at the front was tight.
When Murong Xiu reappeared before Shen Jue’s eyes, he gave Shen Jue a dagger.
That dagger was exactly the same as the dagger that Shen Jue had used to kill Murong Xiu in his last life.
“You’ll kill me with this when the time comes.” Murong Xiu said softly, “This battle is almost over, Shen Jue, I’m going to lose.”
Shen Jue touched the dagger in his hand without speaking, only after a while did he raise his head to look at Murong Xiu, “Then are you going to do it today?”
Murong Xiu was stunned, then laughed out loud, as he laughed, he had tears coming out of his eyes.
He rubbed the tears away from his eyes with his fingers, “Shen Jue, you really are heartless, I admit defeat.”
He turned and walked away after saying that, and when he reappeared in front of Shen Jue, his body and face were covered in blood.
Murong Xiu was defeated, and the Murong Kingdom without the King of Yong had lost in a landslide. The military advisor beside Murong Xiu was also killed by an arrow from Ni Xinyan, which actually could have hit Murong Xiu, but he temporarily changed his direction, and Murong Xiu understood what Ni Xinyan meant.
Ni Xinyan wanted Murong Xiu to watch his army retreat and lose with his own eyes.
The night of his complete defeat, Murong Xiu fled back to his residence in a bath of blood, but when he approached Shen Jue’s house, he eased his steps again, as if he was afraid of disturbing the person in the house. Shen Jue had already realized that Murong Xiu might be defeated, because the maids in the residence had fled, and at the back of the house, no one even prepared the breakfast.
When Murong Xiu came in, Shen Jue was standing in front of the window, and when he heard the sound, he turned back.
Murong Xiu was covered in a military armor full of blood, he took off the heavy helmet on his head and gently placed it on the table, “Ah Jue, kill me.” He also laughed, “That dagger is still there, so kill me with that.”
This was the first time he called Shen Jue, Ah Jue.
Shen Jue was silent for a moment, so he went back to the inner room to get the dagger.
Murong Xiu went to the cleanroom to take off his soldier armor and wash his face.
When he saw Shen Jue holding the dagger, he couldn’t help but smile. He slowly walked up to Shen Jue and took off the dagger’s scabbard with his own hands, “Jue, will you be happy if you kill me? ”
Shen Jue didn’t hesitate and nodded directly.
Murong Xiu smiled slightly, “That’s good, it’s good that you’re happy.” He paused, “After I die, you can escape, I put the waist plate on the table, there is still some money in the box in this room, you take it and go, no need to collect my body …… ah, you should not collect my body, but I was overthinking.”
He dropped his eyes to look at Shen Jue, his long eyelashes restraining the emotions in his eyes, the corners of his lips always hooked. He reached out and held Shen Jue’s hand with the dagger, aiming it at his heart “Ah Jue, do it.”
Shen Jue looked at Murong Xiu, and after a moment, his hand went forward.
The sound of flesh being pierced by a dagger.
Murong Xiu slightly bent down, he trembled and grabbed Shen Jue’s sleeve, “Ah Jue, can you …… take the initiative …… to kiss me?”
The words, he said it with difficulty.
Because of the pain, he couldn’t straighten up, even as his body gradually slumped, but he stubbornly held onto Shen Jue’s sleeve, his eyes fixed on the other man.
“Ah Jue, please.”
Shen Jue looked down at Murong Xiu until Murong Xiu slid to the ground, but he didn’t say or do anything.
Murong Xiu fell to the ground and looked at Shen Jue with a miserable smile.
His Ah Jue didn’t love him at all.
He had almost died several times on the battlefield today, but he figured he couldn’t die on the battlefield, after all, he had promised Shen Jue.
He didn’t want to see Shen Jue’s disappointment.
Murong Xiu reached out and touched Shen Jue’s boots, in fact, he had secretly made these boots, he had measured the shape of Shen Jue’s feet at night, and had the maid send them over after he made them. He embroidered his and Shen Jue’s names on the insole in the boots, if one day Shen Jue happened to see it, would he think of him?
“Ah Jue.” Murong Xiu’s voice was weak, and the rise and fall of his chest became very faint, “If there is an afterlife ……”
If there was an afterlife, what would he do?
That sentence, Murong Xiu did not finish his sentence, and he broke off.
As Shen Jue watched Murong Xiu break his breath, he stood for a while, and then he showed a look of astonishment.
Why hadn’t this realm dissipated yet?
He had clearly killed Murong Xiu.
T~T, my heart hurts rn, click next for the last chap of this arc.
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5 Replies to “C36”
Shit. Holy ….. I am HEARTBROKEN. NOOOOOOOO!!!! Despite everything I actually still like our beautiful emperor. I am crying.
This is so sad but I can’t wait to read what happens next. Thank you for the chapter
i cant bleive it ended this way !!!!!!!!!!
i m so saddddd
shit my heart is at an uncomfy place right now, I dont know whether i should feel overjoyed or saddened at the fact that Murong Xiu wished for his happines and thought about what Shen Jue should do after he’d die 🧎♀️